Mum's birthday

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Just recently, I ditched Kumaran and the free gym sessions for sinful meals at Taipan's Uno Pizza. Oh well, can't help it since it was my mum's birthday. =P

















The best mum in the whole wide world. I lurve you mum!



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Petsiblings?

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How many of you went through the experience of having petsiblings (or korkor jiejie muimui didi abang kakak angkat) before? And how many of you retained (or will retain) that relationship until the times after you leave school life into college life, or when you started working?


Being one myself, I do have my own share of experiences. But from time to time, I do ask myself, "Why do I wanna have petsisters?".




Some may say, 'having' petsiblings are the then-trend. Say says petsiblings are just replacements for single people who don't have girlfriends or boyfriends yet. Some do it just for fun.

Personally, I (tend to) want younger petsisters because I don't have a muimui at home. I don't deny that the truth of the factors mentioned above, but perhaps this was really why I started having them in the first place. I do have older petsisters, and since they are away most of the time, I miss them lots.



My petsisters are mostly my juniors in the school, mostly made up of random close chit-chats overnight. Starting this relationship is one thing, and maintaining them is the, well, hard (?) part. Much like those bf/gf relationships most of you have already heard of, to me, having petsisters are like having additional members in the family. Of course, young, naive kids like us always misinterpret and have misunderstanding on this relationship with each other. I tried to keep us close together, but I often messed up the way (come on, I may not be that mature after all).



You know.. whether I call you petsis, muimui, baka, whatever it is, I love you all to bits. Whatever terms we refer to each other, you all are like my own sisters. This isn't the kind of bonds you should easily call it quits just like how bf/gf could.


However, just recently, the muimui that I had been very close with for the past few years, told me that "I can't bring myself to call you korkor anymore". I knew she would say this someday, looking at how she'd changed after she left high school into collegehood. She seemed so happy with her life now in which I guess, as a friend, I should be supporting her. Right? I'm still a lil sad that she will think this way, though.




Of course, not everyone thinks like I do. I've had numerous such 'petsisters', but only few of them still calls me their 'korkor'. I don't know why but everytime I hear them call me 'korkor', my day is instantly lit up. A smile decorates my faces immediately.



I don't know how long will this relationship last, but I hope the memories will be kept. No one says we cannot have bf/gf with petsiblings though.




Dear baka, I love you all! You know who you are. =)



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<3 Rachel <3

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Hsien was pestering me to update, so yeah. Here's one. =P


My holidays so far can be described in one sentence.. It's the same as the previous holidays! Made holiday resolutions, hardly anything done. All I could do is just sit in front of my laptop, fb-ing away or playing games occasionally. I wanna watch my movies and animes but I always got dragged to do other stuffs. XD


Seriously, I need to do something beneficial. *sigh*


Holiday's ending in a lil more than a week, and work's starting this monday. Network support shouldn't be too much of a job, or hopefully it's just nice to make the work worth working (by worth working I don't exactly means idling in there all day long).



School fees haven't pay. =/

Gotta apply scholarship again. =/

Gonna start lessons again soon. =/

Windows 7 still havent install. =/

I miss her. =(


Most of you might have already known, but yeah, I've got a new sweetheart by the name of Rachel. She's actually my first real love, and she's a Christian (yay!!), and she's not as (a lil too) young compared to my ex. And I'm happy! Ever since the previous incident I prayed to find someone like her.. And I found Rachel.

Thank you God <33

Ain't kiddy love anymore.. Will appreciate her and make every moment with her precious. Right now she's on the way back from Singapore, should be arriving in a few more hours' time.. I'm missing her already. ><



Why can't you understand the fact that I'm Rachel's bf? Leave her alone please ==



Oh well.. hopefully she gets back safely. Looking forward to our next outing!



<3 Rachel <3



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2 months' absence

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It's been 2 months since I last updated. o_o Anyone missed me?




Gosh.. the past month especially had been really hectic.. There was 2 nights that I didn't even sleep, just for the sake of completing the assignments. Well, at the very least the results are worth it. After all that, now I'm



FREEEEEEEEEEEE =D



I can't guarantee any speedy updates since I last stopped, but I do hope I could complete most of my, well, holiday 'resolutions' XD


The list includes watching the anime/movies/dramas that I've downloaded and stored for so long, change to Windows 7, read the bible, practice using the house' Wira and Kelisa, rearrange the stuffs in my room.. and I don't know what else.










Hmm. Gotcha. =)



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Dementia

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While you may or may not shed tears about this, whether it has happened or not, appreciate and care for them. =)


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First two months together, success! ^^

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Last Wednesday marked the first two months that me and Eilyn are together.. Two months is really too short to say that this is workable, but what am I feeling so far?



Sweet! But it'll definitely be much sweeter if she stays somewhere nearer to me.. I'm growing envy of other couples who could walk around in shopping malls holding hands and sleeping on each other's shoulders and I can't! T.T



Oh come on I'm a guy with perfectly masculine hormones too.




But.. All is not lost. At least she's quite a strong girl herself despite her young age, being able to withstand this big distance gap between us. She's unique, no doubt. Nevertheless, it would be so much better if I could go out with her once in a while. Maybe once a week, maybe once a month, perhaps even 3 months once.. Better than a year, right? =)


Just wanna let u know.. We won't know what will happen in the future, but til then, I want you to know that I wanna be with you as long as we can. Will cherish every moment I'll get to call you my darlyn. =)






This is a good way to end the month of love isn't it? =P


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Will you be my Va-lyn-tine?

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Alright, I'm sorta making a confession right now. To those who are still in doubt, Eilyn is my girlfriend. I'm pretty sure you all must have noticed her name somewhere in this blog right? So yea, she is. My first ever. No more questions. ;)


I'm not gonna say anything more la.. but if you ask me nicely enough I might tell. Heck, that is if ya really wanna know. I'm not gonna 'ke po chi' telling the whole world I've got a girlfriend. And just because I'm making a confession here, it doesn't mean I'm showing off. I used to be a less-fortunate, now I'm a more-fortunate. That's all. =)




And speaking of which, it's Valentine's Day today! Have you showered your loved ones with extra special treatments today? Don't forget ur friends also you know. And don't forget to continue loving them on any other days. ^^



You may give your girlfriend/boyfriend bouquets of roses, mountains of chocolates, or even bow-tied teddy bears. Whatever it is, dun forget to give them a kiss on the cheek(lips you can save it for later la XD), hold their hands and look into their eyes, then say "I love you".


Make sure you say it from your heart!







Will you be my Va-lyn-tine, Eilyn? ^.^


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Hopeful

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Earlier I was chatting with Eilyn, and she has been telling me bout the many problems she's been facing daily. More recently, she's been bullied by some people in a way lar. How I'm not sure, since she dun felt like thinking bout it anymore. So nvm lor.



Besides, that's not my point.



Back then she was telling me how much she looks forward to seeing me online and chatting with me whenever she could. It's a relationship cliche, which I could only understand after being in one. And by relationship here I not neccessarily meant boyfriends and girlfriends only, but to everyone as well. As in, whoever you look forward to seeing as a matter of fact.


Few years back, I do have a number of people whom I really look forward to when I'm online. They consist mainly of my petsisters, and I'm not ashamed to say it. Cuz I really am hopeful to meet them online. Just imagine.. you've had a very bad day and then the person you're looking forward to appears, and your days brightens up instantly. Perhaps not instantly la, but sooner or later it will. Most of the time, at least. =P



And then these group of people slowly, one-by-one, faded out of my reach. My life online has almost been pointless. From time to time I may ponder, "What do I do now?" I may sometime avoid conversations, and it turned into 'most of the time'. Eventually, chatting has almost been something of my past. I no longer have anyone that I'm looking forward to chat for. Empty.



Then as I know this little girl(yes, little =P), my day started being brighter than it was before that. And with each growing day, I, again, look forward more to see her online. When she told me that she really looks forward to me, I felt just so, well, how to say the "awww.." feelings ah? XD


It's so nostalgic.. A feeling that I've once lost, and now's it's gradually coming back.












But how long can it last, too?



I will savour it. Thank God for even giving me the chance and time to be with her. Praise God! =)





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Holding hands ain't for just young couples

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Just take a walk down any shopping streets or malls and you're sure to come across many(and I mean MANY, close to MUCH =P) young couples ranging from kiddy 12-years-olds to young adults in their 20s, holdings hands as they waltzed around from boutiques to cinemas, from arcades to cafes. Unlike the olden days, couples now aren't shy to show to the world that they're in a relationship(or commiting a scandal, lol), walking about with their fingers interclasped as they whispered things into each other's ears, giggling as they do.


Some people may view them as puppy lovebirds and some may feel jealous because they don't have a bf/gf to hold hands with. Either way, it is just one of the many methods used to show their partners that they're adored and wants to be adored. Holding hands won't necessarily mean "I love you" because the word love is always overused and misunderstood. I could go on and on to express my opinion on the difference between like and love, but it's completely unneccessary in this post. So I'll pass. =)


Note that I'm emphasising holding hands here?


Earlier tonight when I was going to have dinner with my parents outside, they held hands as they walked across the street, crossed drains and passed through rows of shops. I couldn't resist the urge to snap a picture of it(I never could), so I did. Not a picture perfect on quality, but I got what I wanted. =D





This somewhat sweet moment hit a bump in the road later when we were having dinner and..



"****!! I didn't bring my wallet along!" -Dad



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Aiya, 2 days late lah

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Don't care lah. Happy New Year everyone! I don't wanna talk cliches like leave the past in 2008 or welcome a happy 2009 or something like that, cuz people use them too much d la.. Some people say 2009 will be good year with businesses blooming, many people will get new cars new homes, they walk on stairs won't fall down all that, then there are also some people who say 2009 will be a bad year with businesses bankrupting, many people will lose cars lose homes, walk on stairs sure fall one.


Sorry la I don't really care these predictions. =)


All I care about is that this will be another new chapter in my life, as it does with other people. A new period, a new milestone, with similar goals still pulling me forward towards them. The stressed moments, the desserts I could enjoy afterwards, it's all too familiar already.



2008, however, ended somewhat differently from the others. If you're a keen follower of my blog, you should have noticed that I've mentioned about finding the light in my life somewhere in my past posts. I found the lights and they danced around me. Just as I'm going to have them in my grasp, they flew away from me and faded into the abyss. Dissapointment followed suit, but as I said, the feeling's all too familiar already.


But 2008 ended with me finally being able to embrace a light. It's not gonna be easy holding this one, but I'm holding on to it anyway. She has passed the trial periods, and she's holding on to me too. Like you said, I hope my relationship between me and her will b more sweet , more lovable and more good too~ keke~ ^^



p/s - Eilyn you baka. =P



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2 quotes

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Right now, the best quote that I could use and tell you about our situation is,


"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you wanted it to be, it doesn't mean that they haven't loved you with all they have."


And if I could add..


"Immature you are, but that's why I'm here." =)


I know you're reading this.. And whenever you feel so bad this could end anytime(though it hasn't officially started yet), read this again, and think back of what we've went through and waited for all these times. A month plus isn't a lot, but it's better than nothing.


And I wanna let you know, I'm proud of you for being able to make it this far. =)


Just a few days more, wait la k? ^^



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A lunchbox

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This morning, I woke up half an hour later than usual. I would be late for the first class anyway, I thought, so I continued sleeping for a few moments more before finally deciding to head to the bathroom for a good teeth-brushing and a shower.


Wednesday isn't always the type of day I'm looking forward for due to it's long class schedule, and today's no different. Knowing that I've missed the first Mathematics class and the exam tips is bad enough. To make things worse, we're gonna have our Design Studies test today. Well it's not that bad actually, but the word 'test' still makes me shudder a bit.


My mum told me already she'll be off at 3k with my elder sister for a swim by the time I'm awake. So I was thinking like, where am I gonna get my breakfast and lunch later? Nevermind, perhaps a couple of biscuits and a packet of milk will do..


After I wiped myself clean and gelled my hair, I put on my necklace and wallet and handphone, carried my sling bag and went downstairs. As I went t0 the kitchen to fill up my water bottle, a familiar lunchbox greeted me with a small note attached to it.


Jason,

For u to bring to college for lunch.

Mimi

This is not the first time she has prepared lunch for me, but seeing this somehow made me ponder.. How long can I still have my mum prepare lunch for me like that? The semi-transparent lunchbox and a small piece of note, I could feel the love my mum poured in when she prepared it for me. And it is these things that many people, myself included, often take for granted. Such a simple thing, yet so beautiful.


The egg sandwich inside is lovely. =)






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Powerful words

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"When you die, how many people do you want to cry for you?"





"I will not call you to quit it, but I'd rather support you in hopes that it'll turn out right and that you'll learn something from it."






Two very powerful words injected into my life, yesterday and today respectively. I've taken a step further, and I'm proud of it. Whom I admire I'm personally talked to, whom I love I've been embraced like never before.




=)



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Wake me up, when September ends

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Oh hey, I haven't updated for more than a week already. If anyone's reading, sorry! =P

Anyways, much has happened nowadays.. Heart-breaking, heart-warming, heart-wrenching, things with lots of heartss. <3>I hereby shall first give my credit to Tien Yi (no plagiarism here) for this short paragraph I found in her blog:

Like on Sunday, I saw an old couple at the train station. They were at least 70 years old, and they were still holding hands as they shuffled slowly to the shopping centre. That instant, I saw a glimpse of eternity. That day, I realized that true love forever isn't in passionate kissing and sweet nothings and expensive chocolates.....rather, it's in the quiet, gentle dignity of the two old people, holding hands as they travel towards infinity.

Isn't it very touching? *nods nods*

Things nowadays are so fast-paced, people are rushing here and there everyday, and we've somehow forgot to stop and take a breather and look at what the world has to give us (the beautiful nature), or what we've done to the world (horrible global warming for instance?). And I think that due to this non-stop shuffling here and there in life, we've somehow forgot to live life the way it's supposed to be lived.

We are too busy to go back to our hometowns to visit our relatives..

We are in such a BIG rush sometimes we don't even slow down to chew and eat our food properly and instead settled for fast food restaurants.

Cellphones, e-mail and IM have replaced old-fashioned letter writing (it's not a bad thing larr.. But you know, a letter once in a while is more sincere and it's a permanent thing! Unless we destroy it ourselves that is..)

We resort to elevators instead of walking up the stairs even if it's just 1 floor up/down.

These are the few examples that we (in general) do everyday..

We hear some people breaking up with their other half because long distance relationship won't work. I wonder in the olden days, without the convenience of internet and telephones, how do they keep in touch and still love each other so much? They write letters to each other, and these letters take weeks, sometimes months to reach the recipient, and they continue to do this until they get married and live under the same roof.

And I don't see them get divorced..

Like the husbands and wives today, goodness gracious me, it's all divorcing here, divorcing there. Especially when both of them are working people. Therapies! Yes, this is a very good way to sit down and talk it out, but can't they just talk it out at home? Isn't it the same?? I mean, who've heard of therapies before the 21st century??

Reasons?
-He/She's always not at home
-He/She's too obsessed about her work
-He/She has no time for me anymore
-I think that he/she doesn't care for me anymore etc..

To me, divorce shouldn't come from these kinda reasons, adultery, yes of course! But is working so important until we don't have time for the people we love? Is money everything? Is a perfect marriage worth destroying because of working?

Money is an endless thing, we earn them, we use them. It's a neverending process and we'll continue to do that for the rest of our lives. The question is, do we waste our lives away to earn the things we can never have enough? We can never have enough money. Really, ask anyone.

Maybe we should give ourselves a day or 2 every week, stop what we're doing, and instead, do something we love with the people we care about: family, friends, anyone.






Take some time off and read carefully what she wrote. It's meaningful. Very. =)



Today's post marks the 50th post in my blog since it's making. Hooray!


And September ended today. Welcome, October. =)




Pic of the day :




Decoration on a restaurant's wall. Rock climbing, anyone? =)




Oh ya, and Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends!


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Because I love you.

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More than a year ago, I met you in SMK USJ 23, the very school I'd chosen to stay on rather than moving to another school.


Though there are complains that this school is not good enough education-wise, I chose to stay on. Not that I don't value education in my life, I do. It is the many people there that I've befriended since the first day I stepped in, the relationship forged throughout the years spent together in my house studying, in their house playing, in the malls shopping and watching movies, in the cars clinging on to our dear lives as you guys drive around illegally without your darn 'P' licenses.


It is the intimacy and closeness between myself and the teachers. Never once I failed to go one day in school without meeting some teachers that I know. It is the respect that I give to all(if not most) of the teachers for willing to guide me as an adolescent. It is the passion that drives me to go to some particular teachers, asking for anything I'm curious about, be it Mathematics, Science, English, Bahasa Malaysia or Japanese. Sometimes it is just plain fun to chat randomly with them.


And then there's my Prefectorial Board. Hate it or love it, the board does change me from a shy, timid boy into a..well, better guy. I shall not exaggerate, haha! *ahem* I have my seniors and juniors, and they are like my own brothers and sisters. I'm the head emcee of most official functions and while I'm definitely not the best, it served as a platform for me to learn to speak up.


There are so many things I could talk about what makes my day in school. But at the end of everyday, there's only one thing that I look forward to the most: You.




Ever since you became my petsis, happiness has been redifined in my life. You indirectly showed me that there're other girls whom I could grow to like. You showed me a new level of intimacy I've never experienced before. Everyday when school's over, I would try to get down the bus-stop fast, all in hopes of talking to you, pinching your cheeks, teasing you. No matter how gloomy or bad I felt, my day would be brightened up just by seeing you and knowing you're here. Your smile became my source of happiness.


A year later, things started to change. I went to college, unable to see and talk to you anymore. Then more and more things divided us apart, enlarging the gap between us. Long story short, you put me through months of depression. Losing you as the closest person I've ever been with suddenly, I could not help but mourn the loss of your presence in my life. Though I always wanted to see you again, I tremble and darkness shrouds me whenever you came into my sight. I can't bear facing you.. I have to hide.


But I pressed on.


Though I'm dissapointed of you many times, I'll brush it aside. Though I know we could never be like last time anymore, I thank God that you're still in my life, somewhere. Though distance and time separates us, I would pray and believe that in the end, God would only make us closer than ever. I think back of the moments we spent, all the intimacy, the joy, the fun we had together. I won't let anything destroy our relationship. Nothing changes the fact that you're still my petsis.




And that today you're officially 15 years old, 2 years have passed since we've met each other. What about the following year, and the next, and then the future? I dread to think of the bad things that might happen, but all I could do is just pray and hope for the best.




"A relationship involves times of closeness and times of distance."




Why would I go so far for you?




Because I love you.



Happy Birthday dear Alisa muimui. =)






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You'll find one, one day

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~[(F)]≈[+] » Žępĥỹřűş « [+]≈[(#)]~ [TriPle You Tee EFF!!] says:
i wonder when only i can find her

~[(F)]≈[+] » Žępĥỹřűş « [+]≈[(#)]~ [TriPle You Tee EFF!!] says:
hmm

ÇÎñd¥( says:
hmm..you sure will one day

ÇÎñd¥( says:
just be patient

ÇÎñd¥( says:
if kor one a good one

ÇÎñd¥( says:
its oways a matter of waiting

ÇÎñd¥( says:
i trusted mine..and im gonna wait

ÇÎñd¥( says:
=)

ÇÎñd¥( says:
so kor too lar..be patient

ÇÎñd¥( says:
angels need time to fly down from heaven you know

ÇÎñd¥( says:
lol

ÇÎñd¥( says:
thy need daddy's permissions too

ÇÎñd¥( says:
and passports..

ÇÎñd¥( says:
im crapping again..haha><



As sweet as my lil sis says it. =)



Pic of the day :





Watermelon Snow, Chocolate Snow, Strawberry Snow. Yummy! =D


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Money not enough 2

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Long story short, a later class got cancelled today so Carmen, Crystal, Ju Keat, Sarah, Yu Liang and me went to watch a show titled 'Money not enough 2'. It's a Mandarin-Hokkien show filmed in Singapore. I'm not gonna spoil it for you guys, but I strongly, very strongly(I mean it!) recommend that you guys go and watch this movie. Who knows you might shed a tear or two while rekindling the lesson you've been taught, the one some of you might have taken for granted all the while?


Just to note, I'm not fluent in neither Mandarin nor Hokkien, and I could still grasp the message firmly. And I cried. As in, I really did. Never before had a show made me cried a litre of tears.. *okay I'm exaggerating a lil bit XD*


*ahem* But I still cried.



Please, do go and watch the show. I won't waste my time asking you guys to if it's not a good one. =)




Pic of the day :




Love is the little thing rekindled in my heart today. =)



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I love you, and so do you.

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Today started rather quietly compared to the previous year. =)



Happy Birthday Melissa! And the other person who's sharing the same bday as you. Whoever he/she is. =)


Love you lots. <3


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Test #2, English 1

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*Love can really make people go childish can't it? =)*



Earlier when I arrived in college, the college parking was already full. With my season pass expired, I gotta find parking in the 'forest' just beside the main road. Though I don't really like the idea of parking there again(bad experience from last time), I had no choice. =/


Coincidentally, I met Christina, Vo San and Zul when I got off the car. We walked together into the exam hall, took our pencil case, sat on our row, and with the clock striking 10am, we began the exam.


The second exam is over~



Nothing much to talk about. =/




Anyway we had our last classes last week. After the Programming class last Thursday, Miss Ahzurah went away for a while to get her camera. Just before we left the class, we took a group pic.





*for further details bout this day please refer to Carmen's blog*



Please don't bid us farewell like you're gonna go to Japan oh Miss Ahzurah.. XD

Countdown : 22 days left

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Cousin's wedding dinner

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Blogspot doesn't allow me to edit the time and date of posts like Blogdrive did. T_T




Anyway, yesterday was my cousin's wedding day(or they are already married few days back, yesterday being the ceremony day). I don't have much to comment, but it's really nice to note that he's getting married. Am happy for him. =)




Anyway the pics:





The dinner.



YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM seng... *cough*



Aww.. So sweet!



My adorable twin cousin sisters.. Yen Yi and Yen Zhi.



Aren't they just so irresistibly cute? X3




I so wanna play with the twin sisters again...... <3



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